2020 goal: Get more fit

I currently weigh upwards of 260 pounds. What’s amusing to me about that is when I stepped on the scale for the first time this year, the number that I got was the same number that I got at the beginning of last year. So, for not working on this last year, I did darn good at maintaining this weight.

It’s not great. But it’s something. Gonna take what I can get.

So, it being January and all, a lot of people are thinking about trying to lose weight and get more healthy and all those wonderful / awful things. And I’m no exception. I really thought that I’d be able to get my weight down before this point. I was doing so good about it back in … 2016.

I was quite proud of what I had accomplished that year. And then I hurt my knee and I had surgery and I got depressed and … I stopped trying.

But you know, I’m really tired of being painful. My back was a lot less achy when I was more fit. And I liked the items in my closet a lot more. And I was able to do fun things that I really enjoyed doing. Yeah, weighing less would be nice, but it’s the other stuff that I really miss more than anything.

Like walking? I miss walking without it hurting.

Justin told me about this thing called “don’t break the chain” for accomplishing goals. The idea is that you have a calendar and every day that you accomplish your goal for that day, you put a big X across the day. Then the next day, accomplish your goal again, and put in another X. And you get a chain of X’s. And the idea is to keep that chain going as long as possible.

So I got a calendar and Justin put it up behind the bathroom door where I put all my clothes for the day, so I can see it every morning. And my current goal (it’s going to sound so small) is to walk for 30 minutes. And if I can’t walk for some reason, do something else for exercise for 30 minutes. Just 30 minutes of light exercise every day. And just that right there is so much more than I’ve done in the last several months. And that 30 minutes of light exercise is a lot harder than it should be for someone of my age, but after I get home, I have to sit and ice my knee because I cannot bend it due to the swelling.

But, you know, everybody has to come from somewhere and this is where I’m at right now. It’s not a start or a starting-over or a “fresh start!” or anything like that. It’s just where my journey is at the moment.

What’s that like? An introduction to an idea.

I had an idea for a series of posts that I’m going to work on writing. I’m going to call them “What’s that like?” or something similar – it’ll be a description of things that I’ve done that range from the really mundane to the more complex. I got the idea after telling Grandma and Aunt Dee what it’s like to go to the airport and take a flight because they have never, ever flown anywhere and they have no idea what that’s like. And I think that’s something that’s more common that maybe expected, because I ran into the same thing another time, where someone was asking about what something else was like, I think it was a sleep study, because they had one scheduled and didn’t know what to expect and were really anxious about getting ready for it. And I thought, you know, that’s potentially something that could be really interesting to write about, while also possibly being helpful to someone who’s trying to prepare for an experience – either young adults who are doing something on their own for the first time or people who experience some sort of difficulty, like anxiety or a physical handicap, or any number of other people.

Currently, the list of things I’m planning to describe are as follows. Please let me know if you have any recommendations.

  • Going to the airport to fly to another location
  • Going to a sleep study / using a CPAP machine
  • Driving a stick-shift car
  • Scheduling and going to a ob/gyn doctor appointment and getting an in-arm birth control implant (this will have big warnings before it)
  • Going to the allergy doctor for testing and follow-up immunotherapy shots
  • Taking something to the local dump
  • Going to the dentist for a cleaning
  • Going to the eye doctor for a routine appointment
  • Going to the chiropractor for an adjustment
  • Getting a massage (including different technique information, like cupping and hot stones and Thai)
  • Getting a haircut
  • Getting a pedicure
  • Going hammock camping

I think I’ll also want to include the following “Disclosure statement” as part of that, so I’m just going to put a copy of it here so I can find it again later:

The information in these posts will be from the standpoint of a Caucasian cisgender (meaning I identify with the gender I was assigned at birth) woman aged late 30s / early 40s with no children (childfree by choice) living in the southeast region of the United States of America. It is not intended to be used for legal advice of any kind. Other people’s experiences may be vastly different from my own. This is not intended to include all possible experiences in this situation, nor is it intended to exclude any other possible experiences in this situation. This information is presented only as an example of my own experiences. Your experience may be different from my own.

Happy 2020! Now get to work.

Today is the last day of my Christmas vacation. I have to go back to work tomorrow and, like just about everyone else who has enjoyed a nice, relaxing 2 week vacation, I am not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow. I have slept so much and enjoyed every minute of that. And tomorrow, I have to get up at 6:00 am and that is just too stinking early.

Also, I have not accomplished everything that I had actually hoped to accomplish during this time. There were projects that I was going to finish up and I never even touched them. I think we’ll get working on one of those later this afternoon, but we are not going to finish it in a day. Some of these projects have been sitting for more than 2 years and I’d really love to stop having to think about their unfinished state. It’s somehow mentally exhausting to think about something that I’m not even working on finishing. How does that make any sense at all?!

But I’m optimistic about this year. I think 2020 is going to be a year of positive changes for me. I’m turning 40 in February and Justin is going to be graduating from his grad program this summer. I’m feeling pretty good about it. There’s also going to be a lot of challenges and don’t even get me started right now on world news. But I’m hopeful. I think it’s going to be a good year.

Hello!

Check it out! Justin fixed my website! I got hacked. 🙁 At least, it might have been me. Justin hosts several websites on the same server and one of us got malware and then it spread around to a couple other places and it was hard to see where it started from. So he had to pull everything down, clean it up, and put stuff back up again.

Hopefully the code is all gone now, but we’re still watching to check that it doesn’t pop in from anywhere in the database.

But in the mean time, I think I can start actually working on getting this place cleaned up a little bit!