I’ve caught a little case of the blues. Nothing to be too worried about, but it’ll explain yesterday’s post and some of the less-than-exuberant updates from me. It’s just stress and the changing of the weather and the lack of sunshine. I’m sure you all know what I’m talking about. I don’t have a massive amount of holiday activities or energetic children running around, so I don’t have anything to really make me think that much about the season or any reason to be terribly excited. Of course, not having all of that running around to take care of should make me feel more relaxed and calm, but it’s just not turning out that way.
I’m working on tactics to improve my mental health. Tonight I’m going to get back into my yoga practice. I’m writing in my private journal again. And knowing is half the battle, right? So knowing that I’m feeling blue should make me more prepared for dealing with that situation. And having a plan is certainly better than sitting on my butt all evening just staring at the wall. I mean staring at my computer. And the wall.
I’m hoping to decorate for Christmas this weekend. We still have pumpkins sitting out on our front porch and fabric leaves scattered on the coffee table. I have a couple craft ideas that I’d like to try out if I can make it to Michael’s tomorrow. I’m hoping that it’ll help. Spruce up the house, in more ways than one. Change around the scenery. Give my hands something to do and my brain a little bit of creativity.
I don’t want you to be worried about me. I’ve debated back and forth about whether I should even mention it. But I’m pretty sure that it’s already pretty obvious that I’ve just not been feeling up to par. And if you all aren’t my support group, then who is?
So that’s the scoop: I’ve got the blues. With a little stress and anxiety thrown on top. If I have another day like yesterday, when I sat down at my computer and just couldn’t find the words to explain how I was feeling or what had happened in my day, you’ll know why. The words were there, hidden in the texture of the paint on the wall, but I couldn’t get them to stand in line, couldn’t get them to march onto the page. Screen. Whatever.
See? I’m still having trouble with that today.
Does anybody have any fun, cheap Christmas decorating ideas? I’m hitting Michael’s tomorrow for felt and shellac. I’ll try to put up pictures once I’m done.
P.S. Do you remember at Bargin Bills they had a BIG tub just filled with loose mixed buttons? I wish I could find that around here. I want buttons!!